We don’t currently have any cases but we have lost 3 of our 7 nurses in the past month so I’m alone this weekend. Last nurse quit because she was afraid of potentially bringing it home to her newborn and is also considering a complete career change.
I run around doing all I can and pray every day that this isn’t the day symptoms start to pop up. I’m finishing my prerequisites for a LPN to RN program as my goal was always to end up in a hospital setting... but I’m questioning everything since COVID.
I keep saying, police officers and firefighters get all the recognition they deserve for putting their life on the line in unsafe work conditions. But that is not what I thought I was signing up for and am facing all these emotions I never knew I’d feel. And every person who I feel doesn’t care about the fears we’re dealing with, feels like a weird disappointment I can’t even describe.
We keep coming to work because for some of us, this is all we’ve ever wanted to do. I never cared how I helped people in this profession- personal challenge, opportunity and enjoyment have always guided my career ambitions since becoming a LPN. But it was truly a calling to help others from a very young age and ever since, my life has been driven by my continued desire to help others. And who wouldn’t want to feel some support for that? It has never been in any way expected because this is a truly thankless job. I’ve never considered myself a hero especially since I haven’t been face to face with this thing yet. But even so, it would be no different than any other day I’m taking care of these people and haven’t peed all day or had time for a sip of water. I’m there to do a job and sometimes if they need a little more of me that day, I care for them which might result in a little less care of myself.
I think the lack of understanding and feeling of support from certain people in this country who we’re just trying to help is what hurts me the most. I feel the support is needed now more than ever.